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He has walled up my way, so that I cannot pass,
and he has set darkness upon my paths.
9 He has stripped from me my glory
and taken the crown from my head.
10 He breaks me down on every side, and I am gone,
and my hope has he pulled up like a tree.
11 He has kindled his wrath against me
and counts me as his adversary.
12 His troops come on together;
they have cast up their siege ramp against me
and encamp around my tent.

13 “He has put my brothers far from me,
and those who knew me are wholly estranged from me.
14 My relatives have failed me,
my close friends have forgotten me.
I have become a foreigner in their eyes.


23 “Oh that my words were written!
Oh that they were inscribed in a book!
24 Oh that with an iron pen and lead
they were engraved in the rock forever!
25 For I know that my Redeemer lives,
and at the last he will stand upon the earth.
26 And after my skin has been thus destroyed,
yet in my flesh I shall see God,
27 whom I shall see for myself,
and my eyes shall behold, and not another.
My heart faints within me!"


Job 19










i think god is trying to teach me to find all my comfort and support in him, and in him alone. there has been alot going on in my life and all my friend's lifes around me, and we have all grown extremely close. lately i feel that this closeness is being stripped away,
for no reason thats clear to me.
i don't want to go into detail...
last night/ this morning i felt like i was breaking down physically and emotionally. what i thought were allergies yesterday turns out to be a virus of sorts... and waking up feeling like i'm about to colapse, but still having to go to school probably didn't help...
i felt like there was no one there.
i am wrong of course, i was able to talk to a newer, but still dear, friend, and sorta jsut vent.... But most importantly God is always there! and i struggled with actually finding my support in him and not others. And just being able to Pray and talk aloud with him... just helpped lift burrdens off my shoulders...
i really do feel that friends ARE critical. and God gives them to us to help eachother and encourage one another. and it's is important to talk about things, work things through, and most importantly pray together...

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,"